Where's the off button?

Have you ever had one of those days that you really wish had an off button and it just didn't? That's my day today. I'm tired...I'm tired of being a single parent....I'm tired of managing a growing department....I'm tired of doing homework....I'm tired of sleeping alone....I'm just tired. I'm tired of all the things I HAVE to do that outweigh the things I WANT to do and that's not good as it means I'm out of balance. I keep telling myself I just need to get through to August 3rd and then school is over and the world is all new and I hope that's right. I'm reminded of the movie "Parenthood" and the scene where Steve Martin and Mary Steenbergen are discussing their upcoming family expansion (she's pregnant) and they are trying to decide whether or not to go through with this addition. He asks her what she wants and she says she wants to have the baby. He flips and goes off about how nice it must be to have a choice in life because his whole life is full of "have to's". I realize, of course, we all have lives that are full of have to's and my current state of mind is just temporary. It is draining, however.

Wow...now THAT's a chipper way to start off the blog for today! LOL hahaha Hey, I guess I'm not too bad off if I'm laughing. Right? (this is where you nod and raise your fist in solidarity and say..GO GIRL!) Other than feeling tired and feeling tired of feeling tired things are moving along. On the food front I have cut back to just chicken and turkey for protien and I'm on overload for veggies. My body is likely trying to figure out how on earth to process the good stuff I keep sucking down! Not to mention all the water I'm drinking. Good grief....my body might get healthy right along with the rest of me! Let's hope so as I'm doing alot of work right now on a global scale for the planet that is Kellyann and I know that it is making some positive movement and I'm thankful. Go Bell Peppers and self realization! haha

I'll end on this note....I heard someone talking about someone homeless and they said something I'm pretty sure we've all heard a million times. Only this time it struck me that it's not actually a positive sentence. They said, "there but for the grace of God go I." As I thought about this saying I realized that it implies the person in a perceived bad situation is not covered by God's grace and if that's true then what a sad existence for all of us. I don't believe God's grace is only applicable to some and not others. I also don't believe that all people who seem in dire straights to us are really in dire straights. Sometimes the most growth in our lives comes during times when we are tested by what life brings us and for those on the outside to show pity some how minimizes the journey we all must go through. So, the next time I see someone in a situation that appears to me as if to be less than optimal, I'm going to say, "If I'm ever in that situation I pray for the strength to get up, open my heart and see what there is to learn." Oh yeah...and I'll always thank God for His grace no matter what the situation. :)

Love and peace to you all! Keep your hearts and minds open and see what fills them!!

KA